the clearing

Dredging a river of emotions

There is a dirty river in my mind
Filled with silt composed of nasty things
Imposed guilt, self hatred, and upsetting memories
To free my emotions I must dredge that river

I must clear the toxins from it by dealing with my past
I must bring up the muck a little at a time
For the silt took many years to accumulate
It is impossible to deal with all at once

So I must concentrate on an issue at a time
Self-hatred has eased a bit through life experiences
However dealing with memories is most difficult
I chose to dissociate myself from them
Now I must admit that they are fully mine
And that I must deal with them at this time

Then my emotions will have had time to recover
I will no longer spend my life an emotional numbness
Unable to express what others express so freelyThe full river of emotions will once again become mine

em xxx